why can’t you live without the attention « leejing!

you are so shameless. really, not only are you completely undiscerning and undeserving and unworthy, everything else aside you are just shameless and not even sorry about that or anything i am so effing disgusted with you.

and today i realized that i don't need you. sure, one can always do with a bouncing board for ideas, but when that bouncing board steals all your ideas then passes them off as his own,  this is one bouncing board i certainly don't need.

even worst when said bouncing board is an unapologetic bastard who cannot express himself. like, "omg you weren't listening to me" engenders a response of "huh?" rather than "sorry".

today i said "fuck you" to said bouncing board so many times over lunch, i really started wondering why i didn't just get up and leave. but now i've had enough and i'm going to severe all emotional ties with you. you are a jerk, arse, fucker and most of all -

i don't need this shit in my life right now.

fuck the day i ever met you, i should have just walked away. or rather, when i walked away, i should have just kept walking, should have never looked back. my first (visual) impression of you was the accurate one – this is not somebody worth bringing around.

superficial, yes, but perhaps the lack of looks should have signalled to me a lack in other areas. like EQ (and i can't even blame it on you being a nerd because you've had extremely good upbringing in AC, while i'm the one with terrible upbringing in NJ). like achievements.

i wish i could tell you how much i despise you now, how much i realize that i'm way too good for you, how much i regret that i ever softened, that i ever considered you. how much i regret not following through with my decision to forget you.

but it doesn't matter. you will plagarise from everyone your entire life, or come up with original comments that don't count as witty, just annoying. you will have your anti-social habits, and you will be alone, forever.

until the day your mother decides to matchmake you. or you find a boring, bland girl that she likes to. one that isn't smart enough for you to leech off, and dumb enough to find you funny.

sadly, i am a girl who reads. if you find that too intimidating, that's just your loss. i have had enough of trying to make even just a friendship work. i remember a time when J was being difficult, but even then it was never a personality problem the way your personality obviously has problems.

you're a fucker, that's what you are, and i'm glad that i've realized that. i'm not going to try to make things work between us anymore. i may not be able to find any better friends in the realm of lit, but i'm quite content to do without friends tqvm because i'd rather talk to the wall than talk to an idiot.

that being said, i think i have found other lit majors who are far, far more awesome than you to talk to. also, they are achievers. not even overachievers, but at least achievers.

if men are all such fuckers i'm just going to stay single for life. go have a million flings, a gazillion one night stands, never commit. maybe that's my loss, but i'm willing to grab that loss by the balls and say this in its face: yes i can deal with that.